I try to keep things upbeat here on my blog. Nobody wants to read about someone who has crappy things going on in their lives. Really though, I’m failing.
I can barely afford my rent. For example, I had a screw up this month, and now I’m pretty sure I’m going to get evicted (my landlord is a jerk) over $200. That’s not really that much money in the grand scheme of things. That $200 right now though is the difference between my son and I having a home. Should $200 fall from the sky, I would be right back on track and even have $25 in July to buy things like toilet paper and laundry detergent and stuff we need that I have learned to stretch farther than I ever thought possible. In all reality, $200 isn’t going to drop from the sky. I have nobody to borrow it from. My ex is $205 behind in child support. Odds that he’ll pay it? Well, he’s been behind since November…so that’ s not going to happen.
So tomorrow I’m going to sell the only real piece of jewelry I own. The only shiny diamonds that anyone ever gave me. Since I won’t get nearly enough for that, I’m also gathering up some of my son’s toys and taking them to a resale shop. Admitting that things are this bad is not easy, but I need to learn to come to terms with the fact that my life is HARD. It’s never going to be easy. While I do great most of the time, this time I fell short. Way short. This time I’m not doing great. I’m sure it will be ok, and I will be stronger for it, but it’s pretty damn hard. I give everything I have, and then suddenly I have to give more. Up until now, I have managed to pull “more” from somewhere. I think I’ve stretched things to the limit, though.
On another note…anyone want to buy a necklace? Haha. It’s a 1/2 ct diamond journey necklace. It’s been worn but is in perfect shape and had regular cleanings and inspections from the jewelers! I’m just kidding, of course (unless someone’s interested…)